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val·u·a·ble
   /ˈvælyuəbəl, -yəbəl/
–adjective
1.
having considerable monetary worth; costing or bringing a high price: a valuable painting; a valuable crop.
2.
having qualities worthy of respect, admiration, or esteem: a valuable friend.
3.
of considerable use, service, or importance: valuable information.


for some reason when i read this, i feel like this isn't what i mean when i say something is valuable.
but if i were going to try to describe it, i don't think i could do it any better than this dictionary definition.

sometimes i think there are so many things that are really valuable to me, whether it's material belongings or a friendship or a home or an email or a memory or a dollar. but i think, even if i lost everything i owned in a fire i wouldn't really be that upset. i mean it might be somewhat upsetting, but idk.

sometimes i want to let all the people in my life know how much they mean to me, but then i can't do it. i honestly don't think i understand what they mean to me. but a good chunk of people think that they mean as much to you as you express, which is rather unfortunate on my part.

right now i have 1050 won in my wallet, roughly a dollar. i've literally had to watch every single penny every day, and i planned and spent in a way so that this thursday night i would have this much, and i know exactly how i'm going to use it tomorrow. if someone gave me one dollar right now, that dollar would be so valuable, right?

there's a girl who goes to my school who basically just lost her whole family in a car accident.

how would it compare:
if i lost everything i physically owned, but still had my life and the lives of the people i love?
if i lost all of my memory but still had everything else and had these random people i didn't know that loved me?
if i lost all the people currently in my life but still had life and aspiration and a heart and god?
if i lost my physical life but was survived by people whom i love that are living a beautiful life?

"valuable" to me is something that means a lot.
sometimes i think everything is valuable. does that make sense?