Friday, February 5, 2010

angst is not allowed before bedtime.

i wonder if it's sad that i get so happy when i put on a pair of my favorite socks.
i wonder if it's happy that i get so sad when i have to say goodbye on my last day of work.

i wonder if an ice cube and a light bulb could ever be friends.
i often feel lucky that i am allowed to think for myself and not feel bad about it. i am allowed to be fascinated by robots, and read about jehovahs witness. i can try to understand jim jones, and i can be friends with whomever i want, and travel out of my country to most anyplace i'd like, and pursue pretty much any interest or hobby. there are lots of people in the world who can't do a lot of those things because of family, or political, or religious beliefs.

i think life is so big for such a tiny person. i am only five foot four, you know.
sometimes i am afraid i might burst.

4 comments:

  1. congratulations again on your last day of work :)
    on the perspectives of life, sometimes i feel so so tiny, and sometimes so so big. like alice in wonderland :D
    we're similar in many ways

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  2. http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y50/japaxs/ghjkl.jpg


    done.

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  3. i hope we can find a way to be together someday

    i just miss you very very much

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  4. this post made me smile.
    and yes, you will be greatly missed, we are sad that you are leaving but happy to know you'll be facing a new exciting chapter in your life.
    happy and sad
    bitter and sweet
    inescapable.

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